Who am I? Why should you be interested in learning about me and my journey through motherhood? I want to use my experiences to let you know you are not the only one who thinks you are loosing it. I also want to just share some of the amazing moments I have and will experience raising my now toddler daughter.
I am a wife to an amazing husband who is a very intelligent engineer, but lacks some common sense in the kitchen. I joke, I joke, no really. He tries, so it is the thought that counts, right? I am the cook, the maid, the teacher, the discipliner, run a one toddler day care (for now), and so much more. I am a domestic engineer, also known as a stay at home mom. I chose this job role knowing I wanted complete control of my daughters first few years. Originally, I worked at a hair salon not far from my home. I have a degree in psychology and human services, yet I still haven’t found a job in the field that satisfies my passion. I love to help people in ways that are not obvious. I do not like to tell people what they should and shouldn’t be doing. I HATE when people do that to me. I like to find the motivation in people and use that as a basis for what drives them to do good or make important decisions.
Now to why I am here. I officially became a mommy on May 20, 2015 to a beautiful, super smart, and sassy, girl named Dakota. She has completely flipped my world, my life and my mindset are on a whole different level than it was before. From the moment I found out I was pregnant, I knew that my life was going to change. It has been exhausting, challenging, rewarding, and oh so much fun since she came into our lives.
I have so many people, friends and acquaintances, ask me questions about pregnancy, labor and delivery, and raising my daughter. I used to only talk about the good stuff, the happy stuff. Yeah, that’s nice right? I wouldn’t want to scare anyone from wanting to become a mother one day. But what about all the messy and ugly stuff? What about all those times that you just sit in your closet crying because you are lost, or tired, or even pissed off? Or when you are hiding in the bathroom crying hoping your husband will get up this one time and pick her up? But you feel guilty because you are home all day and don’t have to get ready for work in the morning. This is the reality of becoming a mother, its a very rewarding job, but it is very demanding.
So without getting completely into my journey, I just wanted to give a short synopsis of why I feel the need to start writing and publishing my stories, my life, and even my day. I hope that it helps fellow mothers, mothers to be, or those thinking about motherhood to have a more realistic perception of what this life brings. Or just makes you say, “Whew, I am glad I am not the only one.” I have learned, for the most part, to leave the guilt behind. Try and take every experience you think is a failure and learn from it. So much easier said than done, but it has made me feel like I am a better mommy for it.